Written channeling 9:03pm
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You are about to partake on a great voyage and stand on the upper deck watching the jetty below. The bags are being loaded onto the cruiser and your ticket has been stamped. You hear the cries from those who you hugged down on the dock "Bon Voyage, Bon Voyage" and are holding that premature melancholy of nostalgia in your heart as you know you will never see them again.
And the truth is you never quite felt like this was your homeland to begin with.
And the secret is coming out that you never did belong, but it’s a day too late, you’re already on the boat home and somehow no one ever found out your secret.
And now you wonder why you ever kept it a secret at all-
We wonder too, and yet at the same time tell you that this choice was perfect in that it was what got you on the ship in the first place.
If you had known they would have accepted you anyways… you would have never worked so hard and traveled so far.
You would be comfortable and calm and your inner fire would have been calmed to a flicker. And that wasn't the path you wanted.
We said that ego is the belief in separation. If one were to truly examine this statement one would see how its understanding could hold the key to realigning over and over with higher-self.
It is a clue.
At any time one is believing themselves to be anything other than the whole of creation , special, weird, different, apart, superior, inferior, they are automatically in a state that is not serving themselves or the whole. That is provided they have a desire for polarization towards service to others or all. In the case of self-serving entities, the belief in separation is very much needed to further the potency of the energy that feeds them. Service to self can be seen in this way to actually be the more difficult path.
You are past the point where you can believe in separation without that being painful for you.
It will become more and more painful as you step further into your full being as you are understanding more and more how separation cannot be possible.
This is what you asked for and what you have worked for in this incarnation so far. It does mean however that any wavering from this understanding at all will bring course correction in the form of feelings and experiences on a much swifter rate.
When you have seeming negative or painful feelings you can be certain that it is because you have stretched your understanding of reality further than it had previously been and that your thoughts or actions are not yet in alignment with the new understanding. Have some gentle compassion for yourself in this phase as you are undoing lifetimes of habits. The nature of your cellular memories go far deeper than this one incarnation and you may find solace in tapping into all those other-selves, other incarnations of self, which are retroactively healing due to your present efforts.
Take rest when needed. Follow the inspirations that your body affords you for nourishment, touch and water.
Have complete faith that through this storm all of the desires that you believe you are renouncing will turn, as they always do, into the blooms of the same desires… always one day too late, perhaps, but we would argue that it is always in perfect timing, for if the results of your efforts arrived the day before your efforting, you would not have put in the effort and the results would not forthcome.
In other words, while nothing is necessary and cause and effect are often arbitrary, they are never casual.
You are saying goodbye to your personal relationships for the reason we explained earlier, because nothing can be personal. Fear not, you will always always be supported by those around you and you will always be loved and have excuse to love, but the specifics of your interactions and those attachments which you now hold fervently will melt into the larger bath of your love.
This means, in turn that the love that you hold for those specific will become a more universal love, which was your greatest desire, and the benefits of this sensation on a moment to moment basis in your life will be well lived.
In this now moment you are feeling the side effects of where you are not fully aligning with this desire and cleaning up the leftover reside of where you are acting stubborn to it.
It would be wise to stop before each thought, scene change, interaction and action and set an intention or recite a small prayer for that intention as you move through your day. You are in a space where intention creates far faster than words and where you are able to see the material world manifesting before your eyes in experience and other self. You are now in a position to prove to yourself the cogs and wheels of the actual fabric of creation and so these moments of pause and intention will make sure that these gears run smoothly in your chosen direction.
Things not being casual allows you to become the cause.
You are wise and know all that we know. It is just a question of remembering to have faith. You have your teachers at the push of a button and us at the distance of a flash of thought. You are supported and cannot fail.
Lean back. Lean into it.
It is so beautiful.